This video of the sun based on data from NASA’s Solar Dynamics Observatory (SDO), shows the wide range of wavelengths, invisible to the naked eye, that the telescope can view. SDO converts the wavelengths into an image humans can see, and the light is colorized into a rainbow of colors.

http://vimeo.com/64061379

question: who is superior?
answer: silence & earth prevail. humans can vanish in a split of a second.

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for a long long time, cosmic magic that lived on earth was silence. in solitude, it was eager to meet, greet and teach each atom of its earthly home. with the silence as a magician, earth became peacefully blue in her bones. slowly slowly, earth’s bones grew stronger yet lacking flesh to warm them up. the silence truly loved blue earth and understood her longing, so it decided to gave up a piece of its solitude to be transformed into the sounds of movements, volcanoes & earthquakes. then, a bit later, the silence gave another piece of itself and was transformed into the sounds of weather, thunders & storms. blue earth was overwhelmed by experiencing silence’s wonders of sounds and was becoming lovingly greener in her new flesh. the silence was happy about wearing various costumes and earth loved being entertained with its magic sounds. in no time, the two became one and lived happily colorfully ever after.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kpb7j3-1REM&list=PL38D15D3C59501F95

In his book “Cosmos”, page 3, it’s simply written:
“A galaxy is composed of gas and dust and stars – billions upon billions of stars.”

This man is always smiling on photos. I guess, some persons who are curious by nature like to smile a lot. Like children. I like to smile too, not to please the others, but just for the sake of smiling.

I read in “Cosmos” that at the age of five, when his mother got him a library card, he went there to get the answer what the stars were. When he asked a librarian to show him the book about the stars, the library fellow brought him a book about movie/hollywood stars. When he saw honest disappointment in kid’s eyes he understood what the kid wanted and showed him ‘the right one’: “The scale of the universe suddenly opened up to me…There was a magnificence to it, a grandeur, a scale which has never left me. Never ever left me.”

While painting or drawing, I feel as if I’m in space, looking down on my Earth. It’s a sort of detachment of ‘self’ from ‘myself’, and that’s great. The process of painting has a scientific side to it cause it includes curiosity, investigation, trial&error, in-depth thinking, intuitive feeling,…it requires tons of discipline and inner peacefulness at the same time. It’s quiet, enormous and never bored.

Off to paint now. To those who read this post, enjoy this great audio book.

question: in life, what was the most difficult for u?
answer: to find somebody to love.

Recently I have troubles sleeping which was never a case before. I wake up at 2, or 3:30, 5 etc. Currently I have vivid dreams filled with some weird symbolism. I don’t pay too much attention. I’m aware that in those dreamy moments my mind is cleaning itself from all the garbage accumulated for the past 2 years.

Tonight I woke up at 2:30. Usually I turn around, not making much fuss about it and easily fall back to sleep. But tonight it was the dream that woke me up. It was some kind of very scary nightmare. What’s cool is that I managed calmly and courageously to overcome all the fears and obstacles presented in that dream. The last scene was me sitting on a beach, listening myself: “everything is ok…see, life is full of surprises and just look how wonderful this beach and the sea is.” At the same moment I heard my granny’s voice saying the same thing. She was my ‘true mum’.

Back to 2:30 h. After waking up from that dream I switched my phone on and went on the internet. By ‘chance’ I run straight into this page . I took a quick sip of it and went back to sleep. Sometimes there’re vibes all around you, one just needs to tune own ears a bit better.

I was a ground zero a half a year ago. Just recently I managed to decide, again, to reinvent myself. Cause if you cannot predict the future, invent it.

Disgusting things happened to me recently. They’ve been happening since I was born, all due to ‘my family’. But this last ‘piece’ was almost life breaking. It’s extremely difficult to overcome injustice and crime committed by own family members. I know about the war, I know all about the emotional, physical, financial abuse. But what about child’s right to live freely and one’s right to live peacefully?

I’m in my hometown now, not cause I chose to. I’m here cause last year I had to sell own apartment in Zagreb to cover father’s enormous debts. He never lived with us but with his mum elsewhere. ‘Dad’ was misusing my own firm which I’ve opened only in order to ‘help him’. If I were in some other country, maybe I would be writing this from a prison. Heh, for a future artist, that would be some good biography stuff 😉

So, this year I got a chance to reinvent myself. I’m currently here, intuitively doing almost everything that was written on that page. Not for money, but to regain my life the way I want to. Even though this is a small town, my boat is here, my dog is happy, I’ve low living costs yet high life quality. And there’re enough persons who support me and who vaguely know what was going on. No one views me as a victim and I’m grateful for that.

Also, I’m grateful that my mum finally has a boyfriend so she’s living on island Hvar. I live alone away from ‘home’ since I was 18 so it would be tough for me to share this apartment with her.
My best friends&family are random people who enter my life. I view ‘own family’ as very hostile one, still I’ve forgiven them. No point in nurturing unnecessary, ugly emotions. I’m ok with mum; she helped me a lot in these past 2-3 years and became a good friend. Brother is just like his ‘father’ and that’s ok.

Back to the reinvention, will and guts to survive. Never give up. Life is to live it the best you can. It never asks you politely what you want: life’s just happening. Still, you can be smart and grab a chance whenever you can. The more obstacles you overcome, the stronger and resilient you become. Not mentioning the wisdom one acquires by applying all that knowledge.

As for me, I’m glad cause I finally feel I got a chance to relive life. I’m making baby steps and it’s going fine.

The famous question: What is the meaning of life?                      Answer: Make oneself happy. The rest will naturally come along.