i postpone writing about something that encompasses many fields.
that doesn’t quite refer to the video above but it does serve as a sort offish introductory post.
next post sexy hints: dyson’s sphere and kardashev scale
^ prepost: byte of philosophy and byte of reality aka black mirror
”djevojcice i djecaci se opet igraju rata
zivotinji se zeludac okrece
panika smrdi u zraku
glupost nosi gas masku
u jednom kutku raja zemlja mirise i dalje se okrece
ne da kurbi gusta
zna da je sve ovo sada
a poslije vise nije”
– sirotinja postuje nikoga; voli nikoga, mrzi svakoga jer je ‘sirotinja’
– covjek cini ovu planetu necovjecnom. // da bi covjek danas zivio ‘normalno’ mora postati nenormalan
– tko drugom jamu kopa dobije zuljeve
– stoka se uvijek drzi svog krda; tako je zasticena. ako se slucajno izdvoji iz krda, ubit ce je vlastita glupost i slabost.
– sta bi covjek radio u jednom danu u kojem nema informacija? procesuirao bi informacije od jucer
– covjek prestaje biti divljak i postaje vjesalica
– politika nije estrada ali je ‘la strada’
– nije lako biti budan u svijetu tudjih snova
– danas je ‘in’ biti zaljubljen, ‘out’ biti voljen
– smijeh najvise kosta pametne, najmanje budale
– covjek koji se moze najglasnije smijati moze najtise plakati
– mnoga se drveca ubijaju da bi njhovi listovi postali tariguz
– sve ce doci u ravnotezu kad se jednom prelije casa
– ne mora se uvijek sve razumjeti. nekad je dovoljno samo cuti
– ako ‘pogrijesis’, ne trazi oprost vec stvori priliku za radost
– ‘pristojan’ covjek ce prvi biti nepristojan kad ne treba
– gledajuci krosnju ona pjevusi glasovima vrapcica
– covjek dobro cesto ocekuje ali ga rijetko docekuje
– intuicija je tihi dijalog sa postojanjem koji vice kada je potrebno
– razdvojeni smo obicni. zajedno smo izuzetni
– i love you so much that is never too much
o emocionalnoj agilnosti kao reakciji na tiraniju falše pozitivnosti:
”courage is not the absence of fear. courage is fear walking.”
osobna misao iz 2007:
‘uporno bjezimo od osjecaja straha, tuge, ljutnje, bespomocnosti..sramimo se tih ‘losih’ osjecaja, a ne uviđamo da su upravo oni nasi najiskreniji ucitelji.’
ps. 21:07 / hrt / “blade runner” (1982.)
pps. o drustvenom poricanju: u parizu ‘ratuju’ zbog cijene dizela; u zagrebu pale svijecice za advent // ime denial je hebrejskog porijekla i znaci ‘bog je odredio’
since i was a small kid i always searched for something deeper. didn’t know how to name it then, now i can name it the meaning. at the age of 5 i was fascinated by the fact that i cannot remember my birth. i couldn’t understand why since i was still young, unlike older persons that tend to forget a lot of things. well this completely perplexed me at that time. no one had an answer other than a comment ‘what are you talking about dear child?’. i wondered, if i don’t remember situations like being born, then it seems as if that has never happened. i was also curious to know if i’ll remember anything of this. clearly i do but that’s not the point of this post.
the point is: it’s very bad when brain decides to hide most important parts of you life. parts that formed you and that are crucial for emotional and psychic stability. (un)fortunately i experienced own mental void in a recent horrific part of my life: the vast, universe like emptiness was suffocating. now i realize: if important memories are hidden from a conscious mind, in case there’s a perfect trigger they will start to influence your persona like a laser. this unconscious memory activity i find to be the most honest there is. it navigates you through thick and thin and when approaching the harbour, the memories suddenly jump in from unconsciousness into consciousness. you witness every piece of your life finally taking its place. as if after a long period of chaos a new level of order is naturally settling in. it’s important to note: bringing memories from unconscious to conscious is not easy and usually not in own power, the perfect trigger is necessary. i was lucky enough to have the best person near me, who didn’t push me or laughed at me or called me bad names coz i dont’ remember. patience is necessary as well as love. of course.
during my universe like emptiness i was ‘in love’ with Viktor Frankl and now his quotes make more sense than ever:
– Live as if you were living a second time, and as though you had acted wrongly the first time
– An abnormal reaction to an abnormal situation is normal behavior.
– Those who have a ‘why’ to live, can bear with almost any ‘how’.
– Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.
– Ever more people today have the means to live, but no meaning to live for.
– What is to give light must endure burning.
Here is Viktor Frankl’s book, audio ‘Man’s search for meaning‘ or if you prefer reading it in pdf (my case)
This book and Running with wolves ‘saved’ me. In it Frankl also states:
”..love is the only way to grasp another human being in the innermost core of his personality. No one can become fully aware of the very essence of another human being unless he loves him. By his love he is enabled to see the essential traits and features in the beloved person; and even more, he sees that which is potential in him, which is not yet actualized but yet ought to be actualized. Furthermore, by his love, the loving person enables the beloved person to actualize these potentialities. By making him aware of what he can be and of what he should become, he makes these potentialities come true.”
I wish you all pleasant evening and relaxing weekend. In next post i’ll write about Pilates,
Great things are done when men and mountains meet. William Blake
Come Fairies, take me out of this dull world, for I would ride with you upon the wind and dance upon the mountains like a flame! W.B. Yeats
My father considered a walk among the mountains as the equivalent of churchgoing. Huxley
Kurds have no friend but the mountains. Kurdish proverb
Every man should pull a boat over a mountain once in his life. W.Herzog
How glorious a greeting the sun gives the mountains. John Muir
Love is like a mountain; it’s majestic from its bottom to its top. personal
Have tons of work but it’s this new life i’ve been hoping for, joy of being alive. I was lost many times but I always felt my life was ‘I dont know who I am. I dont know where I’m going. Adventure.’ Years have passed and adventure now brought me to myself, the core is intact (child within). That’s most important. The rest are prescious fine layers of life experiance, remind me of big wings.
Life or bingo is e.g. working what you love and being really good at it, what naturally comes to you. Super bingo is meeting the One. Ultimate life is being lucky winning both bingos.
Point is, with or without bingos, always be true to your whole self. If you dont know who you are dig, go deep, lend yourself a sense of adventure and be bold. Comparisson with others leds to misery and losing yourself on the way.
I use hands
To help my fellow man
I use hands
To do just what I can
And when I’m faced with unjust injury
Then I change my hands
To fists of fury
Our time as victims is over
We will no longer ask for justice
Instead we will take our retribution
I use hands
To show my friendliness
I use hands
To give a kind caress
I’ve fought the strong
I did right for wrong
When I changed my hands
To fists of fury
*yūgen: the medieval Japanese word for a deep and mysterious beauty; profound grace
*ma: an interval in space and/or time; in 8th century Japanese poets used it to express the misty spaces between mountains and as a marker of time; spatial and temporal reality where space and time are not separate categories but interdependent dimensions
I went down deep for I had no other choice. ‘down there’ I could’ve only trusted my heart, intuition & dreams, not ‘my brain’.
down there, I knew nothing due to few black spots in my memory due to epi. like not recognizing a person(s) you once knew..(extremely rare)
mind provoked by heart will, on its own eventually, follow its heart. and present clear memories full of trust.
sort of a miracle; as if in a dark night@sea a huge lighthouse is suddenly lit on, navigating me home.
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did you know that 4 squared equals 7 or that 7 squared equals 4?
its weird I know but I was told I don’t have to apologize.
what a relief 🙂
”Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent.” Wittgenstein
I was writing a post and realized I was missing the main point, the reason I wanted a ‘new post’. Currently there is nothing more comforting than being able to be gentle…and I was afraid I lost that feeling. I would rather die.
Since 2007, after few years of meditation, I started writing down lines that’re keep ‘coming’ to me. I never ever wrote anything before that writing was never my thing.
These line I don’t posses, they’re not mine I feel. I have tons of them and one day I might collect them in one booklet with drawings. It’s about sharing. Important to note, any kind of meditation, be it sitting in a silence or walking in a forest, tunes our brain to finer and delicate frequencies. It’s not being above it all but looking through it. When you ‘see’ and understand than you can also truly love. It’s not easy tough, taking a leap of faith is not for everybody. But for some is, I guess a destiny. I didn’t choose many things, extreme life situations, they chose me. Hundreds of times I felt in no control of my life and trying to falsely relax in such states was not primeval, not sincere. But I didn’t know how to help myself. Your brain can often fool you (great servant but awful master) and your body will eventually & unfortunately react in ill manner – ‘The human body is the best picture of the human soul’‘. Wittgenstein
It’s my 1st time posting these lines here, a few for a start, from 2007:
”Nasilje nikada ne moze biti rjesenje problema. Ono je samo po sebi najveci problem. Veci od ikojeg problema koje ono moze prouzrociti.”
”Suosjecanje nikada nije posesivno. Ono oslobadja. Za razliku od ljubavi kakvu poznajemo.”
”Covjecanstvu su oduvijek potrebni mudri ucitelji. Nikada vodje.”
”Zemlja ne treba nasu ljubav da bi opstala. Covjecanstvo da bi opstalo, treba voljeti Zemlju.”
”Bojati se svoje prirode (kakva god da jest) znaci bojati se samog zivota.”
”Zasto je lakse ‘voljeti’ druge nego sebe? Jer smo svi mi odmalena voljeni na taj isti nacin. Na posesivan nacin.”
”Biti strpljiv. U tisini. Razumjeti.”
”Ono sto covjecanstvu danas treba, mozda vise neko ikada, jesu suze I smijeh.”
”Pustiti ne znaci prepustiti.”
”Izludjujuce je osijecati zivot duboko, a zivjeti ga povrsno.”
”Kada bez borbe prihvatimo vlastitu nemoc, primit cemo pomoc samog zivota.”
”Strah ubija zivot, a ne smrt.”
”Koliko smo se smijali s roditeljima? Koliko smo pricali, a da nas oni cuju? Koliko su imali hrabrosti i razumijevanja da nas puste da budemo sta jesmo? … I onda se sablaznjavamo nad strahotama koje vec stoljecima covjek radi covjeku.”
”Pcela zivi svoj puni potencijal. Covjek jos uvijek ne.”
”List zivi na drvetu, ono je njegov sav svijet. Covjek zivi na Zemlji, ona je njegov cio svijet. List ne povrijedjuje drvo…osim kada je bolesno.”
”Ratujemo jer nam je strah poznatiji od zivota. A svi strahujemo od rata i volimo zivot. Koji paradoks.”
”Samo si mlad covjek moze priustiti da kaze ‘znam puno toga’.”
”Covjek cita mnogo mnogo knjiga da bi mogao pricati o nicemu. ‘Filozofi’ pricaju najvise.”
”Ocekivanja ubijaju momente.”
”Sto je zutanjak u šoku? Maslacak.”
”Nagrada strpljenju je strpljenje.”
”Cvijet se otvara suncu, prirodno, s lakocom. Takva ista lakoca trebala bi postojati izmedju dvoje ljudi da bi ljubav cvjetala.”
”Kada te nesto ‘dotakne’ – vjeruj srcu, a ne umu. Um je prepun. Srce je vecinu vremena prazno.”
”Kada se zvijezde ne vide, ne znaci da ih nema.”
”Nema noci bez dana. Nema zvuka bez tisine.”
”Svjetlo i tama radjaju boje.”
”Cijeli svemir stane u jedno zrno pijeska.”
”Za veliku ljubav potrebno je snazno srce.”
”Tko prvi vidi sunce dok ga jos nema? Ptice.”
”Akumulacija bilo cega, osim ljubavi, nezdravo deblja.”
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LOVEution 